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RAINBOW

2004-03-06T23:11:00.000-08:00

Rainbow
South Border

Fallin out fallin in
Nothings sure in this world no no
Breaking down breaking in
Never knowing what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no no

Say goodbye say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we could never understand
Why some things begin with just love
We can never have it all
No no no ohh

But oh, can’t you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
And so baby just smile
Coz I’m always around you
And I’ll make you see
How beautiful life is for you and me

*Take a little time baby
See the butterflies’ colors
Listen to the birds that sent to sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to me

Even if there is pain now
Everything will be alright
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There’s a rainbow always after the rain*

Hittin high hittin low
Win or lose you should go
Yeah yeah
Getting warm getting cold
Weather can be so good or bad
But baby this is life so don’t get mad
No no no

Coz ohh
Can’t you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
And so baby just smile
Coz I’m always around you
And I’ll make you see
How beautiful is life for you and me

Repeat *

Life’s full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don’t despair my dear
You’ll take it each trial
And you’ll make it through the storm
Coz you’re strong
My faith in you is clear
So I say once again
This world’s beautiful
Let us celebrate life that is so beautiful
So beautiful…

Repeat *

Real-life Connection

2003-10-07T18:08:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how some life stories could make a difference in our lives in more ways than one. It's amzing how this really simple story was the inspiration behind a mobile companies mission to keep people connected. Connection, is one of our means in such a fast-paced world. A simple tagline of "Connecting people" made all the difference for this ad....the inspiration behind Nokia.

In 1993, American Lisa Riblet wanted a break from her high-powered job as a network news producer so she signed up to compete in her first kayaking race. She took a dunking during the event, but was pulled out of the water and given some pointers by a helpful stranger. He just happened to be Olympic gold medallist Joe Jacobi, one of the world's best kayakers.

Today they are married and Lisa is full-time manager of Joe's kayak team, which competes in kayaking events around the world. Together, they own a bed and breakfast in the US state of Tennessee and have just completed building their first home. "We made sure it faced southeast for good feng shui," says Kisa proudly.

Despite their different backgrounds, Lisa and Joe found each other because of their enthusiasm for sport and a desire to participate in life. Nokia celebrates this philisophy and encourages all people to stay mobile and keep active. Lisa and Joe are a testament of what positive connection can bring.

published in Time Magazine, 2001

A Love Worthwhile

2003-10-05T20:09:00.000-07:00

The gospel and the readings in church today are about the sacrament of MARRIAGE - the binding, lasting commitment between man, woman and God. Ironic as it may to these readings, I have been confronted by different views from my friends about marriage. One of my guy friends has this view of living together before getting married - the testing the waters before you swim sort of thing. He asked me if we have the same view and I answered him (half jokingly) "If only without sex". And he just laughed at me saying that nobody would agree to such a term and condition. I find this such a dismal situation & disturbing perhaps. How could relationships concentrate on something as physical as 'sex'? Where has everyones morals gone? What happened to dreams of true love and hopes of forever?

I just found out that my friend who is working in the U.S. had just moved in with his boyfriend. At first, it was just a temporary arrangement since she lives far from work and boyfrind's house is near work. So it started with a few nights of sleep over and now after 2 months of that temporary thing she took the bigstep of MOVING IN. Now I'm starting to doubt the love between them. I used to think highly of the guy who she claims to be responsible, God-fearing and trustworthy. I have this belief that a man who truly loves a woman would never let her be compromised in anyway (or let her fall into sin or let alone be lured into temptation). The "right guy" is someone who could lead you to the path of goodness while in a relationship. MArriage is for the rank and file, not for the officers of Christ's army. For, unlike food, which is necessary for every individual, procreation is necessary only for the species, and individuals can dispense with it. (The Way, 28) Love is not just between 2 people. The author of love, God, should be a part of it. MArriage is a step that two people in love (in their right minds) has to take and not a risk they have to face. Besides, Love....is well worth any love. (The Way,171)

2003-09-30T17:51:00.000-07:00

I've been looking for the lyrics of this song for a long time now and maybe I was not just searching well enough. This is the contest piece of one of the contestants who joined an acoustic contest in a radio station. I could say that she did a pretty good rendition. And since I really like this song I want it to be posted here in my blog.

You First Believed

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star
Gazing off into the dark
Dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid
Captured in your embrace

So many times
When my heart was broken
Visions of you
Would keep me strong
You were with me all along
Guiding my every step
You are all that I am
And I'll never forget

It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed

There were times
When I'd thought I'd lost you
Fearing forever was a dream
But it wasn't what it seemed
Placing your hand in mine
You could see in the dark
You were guiding my heart

It was you who first believed
In all that I was made to be
It was you looking in my eyes
You held my hand
And you showed me life
And I've never been the same
Since you first believed

How many times did I pray
You'd find me
How many wishes on a star

2003-09-30T17:35:00.000-07:00

Right now I am looking for the blog entry I wrote yesterday. I saved it as a word document in one of the computers here in school. Apparently, some lousy jerk toggled with this computer and deleted all the temporary files. I'm not in the mood to write one yet since I'll be having my exams tomorrow. I'll just spend my time studying for the exam than re-writing it over gain. Maybe tomorrow then.

2003-09-30T17:32:00.000-07:00

I wrote a really long and worth-reading blog entry yesterday. I was editing it and when the time came that I was about to have it published i just got disconnected. Such a lousy connection. I wish that our school is having DSL for their internet services but I'm also wondering that if they would do that they might just have it added in our tuition fees. And I can't bear another tuition free increase so I guess I would just have to bear with this.

2003-09-17T21:58:00.000-07:00

I'm feeling bad today. A new module had just started and apparently we are still not that busy and loaded with things to read. I don't know but for some reason, my bestfriend Verinice's birthday just slipped my mind. Well it's probably excusable if it was the first birthday I missed but it is the third consecutive birthday. Ohhhh, I just hate myself.

2003-09-10T18:08:00.000-07:00

Here are some nasty statements you could throw at someone whenever your drained, lost your energy and still people are getting at your nerves....Haven't tried using them though, but i feel that this would be appropriate in the direst of circumstances...whenever you just don't like somebody's presence.

Classy things to say when stressed

1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!!!"

2.. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!"

3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?"

4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up"

5. "Well aren't we a bloody ray of sunshine?"

6. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after."

7. "Do I look like a fucking people person!"

8. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting"

9. "I started out with nothing still have most of it left"

10. "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me"

11. "YOU!!... off my planet!!!"

12. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You hoose"

13. "Practice random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of
self-control"

14. "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed"

15. "And your cry-baby, whiny! -assed opinion would be.....?"

16. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years."

17. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer."

18. "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed"

19. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?"

20. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable"

21. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't
gone to sleep yet"

22. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura."

23. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too."

24. "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?"

25. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor."

26. "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it."

27. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead."
28. "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality"

29. "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done."

30. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no."

31. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?"

32. "Earth is full. Go home."

33. "Aw, did I step on your poor little bitty ego?"

34. "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert."

35. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth."

36. "You are depriving some village of an idiot."

37. "If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport"

2003-08-28T20:58:00.000-07:00

Here's one story sent to me by a friend via e-mail. I recommend it to people who equate love with passion and romance. But I have this to say, if it is true love, even without passion and romance, true love remains....and last a lifetime.

A true story.... Loosing the romance...

My husband is an Engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature,
and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Three years of courtship and now, two years into marriage, I would have
to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before,
has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a
relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a
little girl yearning for candy. My husband; is my complete opposite,
his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments
into our marriage has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to
tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

"Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for everything
in the world!" I answered. He kept silent the whole night, seems to be
in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.

My feeling of disappointment only increased; here was a man who can't
even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he
asked me:" What can I do to change your mind?"

Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and
I guess, I have started losing faith in him.

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: "Here is the question, if
you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I
want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure
that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"

He said:" I will give you your answer tomorrow...." My hopes just sank
by listening to his response.

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper
with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table
near the front door, that goes....

My dear,
"I would not pick that flower for you, but please allow me to explain
the reasons further.."

This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs,
and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can
help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to
rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to
save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every
month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your
tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by
infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure
your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for
your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to
clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can
also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the
sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the color of flowers, just like
the color of the glow on your young face...

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you
more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting...
and as I continue reading...

"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are
Satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside
bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...

I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching
tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread....

Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does,
and I have decided to leave the flower alone...

That's life, and love. When one is surrounded by love, the feeling of
excitement fades away, and one tends to ignore the true love that lies
in between the peace and dullness.

Love shows up in all forms, even very small and cheeky forms, it has
never been a model, it could be the most dull and boring form.. .

Flowers and romantic moments are only used and appear on the surface of
the relationship. Under all this, the pillar of true love stands... and
that's
our life... Love, not words win arguments...!

2003-08-27T17:47:00.000-07:00

Here's something to think about, something to reflect on.....

No one falls in love by choice, it is by CHANCE.

No one stays in love by chance, it is by WORK.

And no one falls out of love by chance, it is by CHOICE.

2003-07-09T21:52:00.000-07:00

Here's something sent to me by a friend through e-mail. While reading, I realized that the questions mentioned were the same questions I would want answers to. And those questions, when answered the way I want them to be answered would prove a persons love for me. But after reading I learned that some questions are better left unanswered and some things are really beyond reason.

Love does not need a reason...
Lady: Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man: I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..
Lady: You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me?
How
can you say you love me?
Man: I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady: Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's
boyfriend
can tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man: Ok..ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice is
sweet,because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are
thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movement..

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and
became a
vegetable. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the
content:
Dearest,
Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk? No!
Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I love you.. Now that you cannot
show
them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile, because of your every movement that I love
you...Now
can you smile? Now can you move? No, therefore I cannot love you...
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you
anymore. Do love need a reason? No! Therefore, I still love you...And
love
doesn't need a reason...
" The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, not
touched...but are felt in the heart ."

2003-07-09T21:31:00.000-07:00

Passion alone with neither commitment nor intimacy involved, is infatuation.
Intimacy and passion, without commitment, is romantic love.
Commitment and intimacy, but without passion, is friendship.
It's only when all three - intimacy, passion, commitment- thrive that we consummate love.
(as published in Cosmopolitan Phils. May 2003)

2003-05-29T06:01:00.000-07:00

This is a really nice prose published on March 14, 2000 in the Youngblood section of the Philippine Daily Inquirer written by Jonas Julius caesar Nuza. I've been keeping this newspaper clipping for three years now. It is a very interesting letter which for years I've looking forward to a response from the recipient. I promise to post it here too once i learn the answer.

FROM MIND TO HEART
Dear Heart,
It has long been my intention to drop you a line regarding our mutual employer Self. Of late, Self has not been himself. He mopes around with his head down, like a convict on Death Row. He has become sentimental to the point of silliness on account of a certain Girl. Eyes tell me Self looks at her as though it were the only relief from all that is wrong in the world. The other Senses report a similar behavior. Nose says Self becomes giddy-almost delirious-when he gets a whiff of her perfume. Being Mind, I can attest that all this is true.
Nose says that while her perfume is indeed lovely, it is nothing special or inique. It is a scent used by others, but Self pays no attention to them. Nose cannot explain why Self finds the scent so attractive on the Girl. I believe the answer lies not in the scent.
Ear reports odd inconsistencies in Self's behavior. When he hears her voice, he listens like he does to no other sound on this earth, not even the loveliest music ever composed. Ear believes that that were Self to hear heaven's own melodies, he would still prefer Girl's voice.
Tongue especially has reason to complain. He claims that the Girl's mere presence ties him up hopelessly and Self is unable to speak. He simply stares, panting gently like atired animal. Tongue insists that he is not to blame for his seeming inadequacy. he says he never fails Self in his dealings with others; in fact, Self is usually articulate & expressive. But, the Girl, Tongue says, triggers something in Self that makes him useless.
Now Heart, we have been friends for as long as I can remember. We have always regarded each other with the highest respect; and believe me when I say my regard for you is no less now. It has always been the two of us, dear friend, who controlled Self's behavior. Needless to say, I am puzzled by Self's current state. Though some information that were sent to me as well as by direct observation, I have concluded that you are to blame for the havoc wrought on Self's system.
Please do not take offense, Heart. I know that you are responsible & that you would never do anything that isn't in Self's best interest. But perhaps this once, you should reconsider your actions. Self is very much affected by what has been happening. He is incapable of doing anything useful or worthwhile. He just lies around & dreams something which I am very familiar with.
Even the Digestion Dept. has complained to me that their regular functions are being disrupted by some unknown phenomenon in Self's system. Lungs say they have cause to complain also since their breaTHING RHYTHM become irregular & even stops whenever Self sees Girl or hears her name or thinks of her. In fact, it was through they who first mentioned your name as possible culprit. Please do not hold this against them. They are only looking out for Self's best interest, like you and me.
Now I beg of you dear friend to consider the greater good. You are aware of the chaos your actions are causing inside Self. I cannot do your job for you, Heart, for your work is different from mine. But ultimately our functions are the same: to make decisions for Self, as we see fit. And until lately, we have always been in agreement as to Self's proper demeanor.
Self haslost interest in the rest of the world. He hardly eats, barely sleeps and no longer performs his duties with his old zest and enthusiasm. All he has forme is the thought of the Girl- her voice, her scent,the way she moves, the way she smiles, the sound of her laughter, and the kindness & goodness he sees in her eyes. All this I know because I am Mind. However, I can't comprehend what is happening to Self. I don't know what to do, how to react even what to think. I have also become incapacitated.
Which is why dera heart, I repeat my plea. Whatever you are doing that makes Self act the way he does, please stop it. I feel some important change coming on, some life-altering event in the horizon, and I am afraid. I do not know what to do. Something has completely taken over self & i'm afraid everything point s to you. Please do something Heart, or drop me a line & tell me what I need to know.
I cannot stand not knowing what is going on for much longer. It is my job to know. It is disgraceful to think that I cannot do what is expected of me. Heart, please, if you cannot reverse what has happened, at the very least let me know what it is that you have done to Self. I will wait for your response w/all the patience at my command.
Your dear friend,
Mind

2003-03-27T19:09:00.000-08:00